It’s been a year since you are gone, can you believe it? Because we actually don’t.

When it comes to memory and remember every single detail I’m not that good, but your sickness and death made me more conscious on that matter, we don’t really understand pain until we really experienced it! And I remembered every little second of the last day you were with us, that day I discovered how brave can love make us, I gave you the last meal you ate and help you to go trough the worst of your afternoons.

Do you miss us? I am always asking that in my head, until it gets to my heart and hurts. Can actually someone that is not anymore over here can miss, love and even suffer? I hope you can love, I hope you can miss because is a selfish need I can’t leave away but when it comes to suffer I wish that you don’t have to be feeling that anymore.

Its amazing how everytime I go to your house I can sense your smell and sometimes I wave to your favorite spot on the front porch to realize you are not there waiting for us to visit you almost daily, we have been doing the same reunions we used to have when you were alive, we sit on the front porch to just chat! I have become aware of something really funny we fight in silence to have the privilege to sit on your spot to feel you closer…

Don’t know how to close this piece of something I’m writing, tears came to my eyes and I don’t know how to stop them!

Life is such a mistery and we still have the guts to take it for granted…

It’s been a year since you are gone, can you believe it?

Love you deeply and forever.

Yolis Guerra